One year after the loss of my girls and I’m still not pregnant. In this post I cover Sean and me’s journey to build our family. I walk through, in detail, what we’ve tried and my emotions along the way. Thankfully, we’ve got a beautiful 2.5 year old and a massive village to keep us smiling along the way.

In this weeks blog I talk about all of the feels. Meaning, I talk about my emotional state, rollercoaster of feelings and my journey in therapy.

In this week’s blog I awkwardly talk about my body, then and now. This was a difficult one to write as I couldn’t really put my journey into words. I appreciate all of you.

In this weeks post I talk about how our people showed up. People are often defined by how they respond in hard times and we’re so lucky to have friends and family, near and far, that showed up for our family and our girls. We appreciate and love you all.

This weeks post talks about seeing our baby girl, Via, for the first time. She was and is still our saving grace. Her smile, spunk, personality and joy have helped us more than she knows.

Short and sweet this week. I cover the first few hours after leaving the hospital and the myriad of emotions that came with those hours and the weeks to come. Next week I’ll share how important Via has been to our healing. Love and appreciate you all for sticking with me and following my blog.

Montana and Parker fought hard and decided to take their last breaths on me. They held on and although life was slipping from them with each breath - they looked like they were right where they were supposed to be.

In this post I share the birth of my girls and the first 24 hours of their lives. We became a family of 5. Then, everything changed when the doctor came into our room late Saturday night.

In this blog I’m asked a question that nobody should have to be asked — do you want to resuscitate? I’ll share with you an 18 hour journey that covered an ultrasound, two hospitals, an emergency flight over the Cascades and being told it’s time to have my twins.

In my second post I talk about the beginning of our loss - when I started feeling abnormal and the subsequent ultrasound where I found out I was dilated - at 24 weeks pregnant. The photo represents me happy and pregnant, at a concert, just 5 days earlier.

My first post about how it all started - the journey to get pregnant and the story of my first pregnancy!